Meditation 101

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Yesterday seemed like a dramatic day. I started the day off with a fantastic yoga session with my favourite yoga instructor. She has the voice of an angel and a superb way of describing poses to make yoga achievable for everybody and every body. She teaches an Intro to Meditation class in the evening at a different location on Thursday nights as well. Depending on how our ultrasound went in the afternoon, I was looking forward to giving this class a shot. For me it was two-fold. First, it gave me a chance to learn HOW to meditate, which is something I want to learn, but can’t seem to figure out. Second, it was another opportunity to spend time listening to this fabulous woman I’ve grown to admire.

After the morning yoga bout, I quickly darted to the library to pick up a few books on yoga, meditation and happiness. Then, I came home to chores that I had put off for a few days. After fixing a crock pot dinner and working on a mountain of laundry (for two people, its ridiculous), I sped off to the hospital for our ultrasound. As yesterday’s post mentioned, I was less than impressed with the medical staff and our experience there. Perhaps this spiralled me into my mood that I feel today? After the hospital visit, my fiancé had to rush back to work. I came home and wrote my post, then I made Yorkshire Pudding and gravy to go with the pot roast I’d put on earlier. When dinner was ready, instead of eating, my man decided to go fishing – a beautiful day will encourage a fishing trip after work every time. It was just as well, because I wanted to hit up this meditation class.

Well, off I went nervous about who would be my classmates and anxious of what this class would teach me. I felt at ease when I walked in the multi-purpose room because of my beautiful yoga teacher’s smiling face 🙂 She allowed me to sit on a yoga mat cross-legged like in yoga class rather than on a folding chair like some of the others. We shared some chit-chat getting to know each other, any past experiences of meditation, why we were there and tried two five-minute meditation sessions. It was ok… not great like my first yoga session had been, but just ok. I wondered whether or not I should show up for the next session next week. That’s when I heard her say, “I won’t be here next week, but someone will be filling in for me”. I was soooo disappointed. I wondered if I should come next week to give it another try and just experience it with a different teacher or whether I should bother at all now. I decided to make the decision when next Thursday came around.

When I got home, I got the newspapers and took them onto my deck to read them. I started reading the front page story, which happened to be about an event venue I used to work at. It made me angry to remember my time there. It was difficult to do that job and I was very unhappy there. A week or two ago, I went back to visit my old co-workers and to announce the news that I was finally pregnant (I used to tell them how I was so ready to start a family and wanted to have like 5 kids NOW). When I got there, it felt cold. I hadn’t been back in 5 or so months and thought they would be excited to see a familiar face and catch up. Nope…    I didn’t tell them I was pregnant, because the receptionist (who was new to me) said the boss wasn’t there and he one lady I did know didn’t even get up from her desk when she saw me. Anyways, reading the front page put me in a mood. I couldn’t figure it out. I just had a peaceful day for the most part and now I was in this mood. I cried in the shower… it just came out, but it didn’t make me feel any better. I took a Gravol before bed because I didn’t want to toss and turn, I just wanted a new day.

But this morning, nothing changed. I started reading where I left off in “The Happiness Project” (September chapter) and thought I’d feel better, but I don’t. Grr… Serenity now! I guess I should try to meditate, huh?

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12 Responses to Meditation 101

  1. It is disappointing when things do not meet our high expectations. Amazing what a good night’s sleep and new day can do to change perspective!

    • 16sedici16 says:

      It’s true. I try hard NOT to have expectations, but its in me and obviously a work in progress. Changing perspective can be difficult for me, but I try to go to bed early on days I wish wouldn’t last a minute longer with hopes that the new day will be brighter for me.

  2. Katharis says:

    It’s always good to be trying something new, even when it doesn’t work out you gain experience. 🙂 I am currently looking into entering a Zumba class (to finally get off the couch and have a more active lifestyle) but I have yet to find a gym or center offering it near us. (It is number four on my to-do-list.) I actually signed up for one last year but I was very disappointed with the instructor and it was an hour trip from home.

    About your mood, I remember my mom telling me that she used to sometimes get them too when she was pregnant with my youngest sister. It wasn’t the case with me and my other sister. What she did was cook herself something warm and creamy, her comfort food and just tried to savor the smell. Or, since your starting on meditation, you may like scented bars, incense, or candles. A spritz of citrus or anything fruity always cheers me up. Some pregnant women are more sensitive to certain scents though, so find something that you like. 🙂

    • 16sedici16 says:

      I’ve tried Zumba… it wasn’t my thing, but I hope you find a class and teacher that works for you. On the mood situation – I tried eating my favourite treats and it actually made me feel guilty more than anything not to mention disappointed with myself I also enjoy incense and candles, but I can’t seem to find a space that makes me satisfied with the whole experience. I will be writing more on that soon.

  3. Hope you don’t mind if I follow your exploits. It’s prompted in part by your reference to hospitals and medical staff (as I’ve had more than enough experience there this year due to my aging parents); by your mention of meditation; and the fact that I, too, live in the Lower Mainland.

    Re: meditation. Consider it not so much as bring peace of mind, but as peace of mind within the chaos that we all live. You’re the lotus, but there’s still the swamp in which the lotus blooms to contend with.

    • 16sedici16 says:

      Thanks for following 🙂 Some days I am better at meditating than others. I’ve had a depressing couple of days so its been tough, but I feel a little better this week, so we’ll see.

  4. intersting…u try doing more of meditation…and drop all expectations….

    • 16sedici16 says:

      It’s hard for me neglect the expectations in my head. It’s like I can’t shut off…
      Any tips to help this?

      • Hope 16sedici16 doesn’t mind my interjection… but to continue with the lotus metaphor, if you’re getting swamped by your own expectations then use them as the object of your meditation. Just be aware of them. Don’t get involved in their thought trail. Don’t try to suppress them. As you continue to just observe, to just be aware, other things will come to the fore. Tension from which you can relax. Feelings, fears, desires, etc., that might explain why you keep the expectations going round and round in your head might arise. When they do, just make note of them for possible later analysis and continue being aware.

        You are the Lotus of Awareness. As the lotus and swamp arise together, so do awareness and thought. So, if it feels right, use your expectations as the object of your meditation. Hope this helps.

      • yes…make a diary..and write it before meditating…write all u have in ur head…and just be regular in ur meditations…i tell u faith in our technique of meditating is vry important…join some meditation class…or if u can then do art of livings basic course….it will give u all the solutions…and my dear….SMILE… 🙂

    • 16sedici16 says:

      Thanks for your comments! I HAVE joined a meditation class (see above, haha). Tonight is the next class and I plan on attending… slow and steady 🙂

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